The reason I haven’t been writing is that I am sick and the illness makes me feel unmotivated to write or to do most things that I usually enjoy. On September 7 I have a doctor’s appointment with a specialist, an endocrinologist, to figure out exactly what is causing my thyroid to produce way too much hormone and develop a treatment plan. September 7 can’t come too fast!<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
The symptoms are unpleasant. I feel hot, sweaty, itchy, weak,
\nunmotivated, achy, tired, and overall unwell. My ankles swell up
\nbecause my heart beats so fast that it beats inefficiently. I can’t
\nwalk up stairs well. I walk up stairs as though I were a very old and
\nrickety person. I walk slowly all the time. My entire internal system
\nis working incorrectly. I need to go to the bathroom far too often.
\nOther unpleasant things occur that I can’t bring myself to mention here
\nin public. I feel crappy.<\/p>\n
I have had blood tests that show that my T4 thyroid hormone reading
\nis 4. Normal is from one to two. I have hyperthyroidism. It may be
\nGrave’s Disease which is the second most common thyroid illness.
\nHashimoto’s is the most common. I have too much thyroid hormone which
\nis like being run by an engine that is in overdrive and won’t quit.
\nConsequently, I am taking Toprol XL which slows down the heartrate
\nwhich should get me through to September 7 with my heart still beating.
\nThere is a possibility that I have cancer.<\/p>\n
Sitting down in front of my computer to type takes effort.
\nEverything takes effort. I feel differently about food than I did two
\nweeks ago. Gorgeous eclairs get no attention from me. I can’t drink
\ncoffee or anything that might speed up my heart. I feel as though I’ve
\naged twenty years in two weeks. <\/p>\n
Maybe after September 7 I will do the opposite? Get younger by twenty years in a few weeks? <\/p>\n
Right now I have no energy for estrangements. I just want to have
\nenergy enough to stay alive until someone does something to help me
\nfeel better. Life is short. Nature is reminding me of who is boss. It
\nsure isn’t me!<\/p>\n
Ginny<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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